ramblings

One of the most shocking things I've learned while being a parent is that each day I look at Nate, I am looking into a mirror.  And what happens when I'm afraid of what I see in the mirror?  Or it makes tears spring to my eyes?  Or makes my heart thump so hard it hurts?

And then that mirror turns transparent and I see that he is just himself.  A boy who will be turning 5 in just a couple weeks.  His own person, with his own style of relating to the world. 

I know there is so much more to this post.  But my brain is caught in the whirl of the week before Christmas.  Another time, I'm sure.